Post by Jeff Wilson on Apr 2, 2010 22:21:23 GMT -5
Alright Jurors, first I want to start off by clearing up some of what Debbie had apparently said about my motives. Originally when I entered this game, yes, I was in it to get an all-stars spot. But I had no idea what I was willing to do to obtain that spot. When Bossa had lost two members, and was about to lose a third I managed to pull off my first big move by tricking Aras into voting for BJ. It resulted in Charlie leaving, and that’s when I knew that I might have it in me to win.
As I stated in my opening statements I made myself the promise that I’d do whatever it took to get myself to the finals, but what it really was about was proving to myself that I had the power to get myself to the end. I really made that conscious decision when I met up with Ashley on New Swan. Ashley had known that I was eager to get an all-star spot so she started to tell me things like. “I won’t vote you out.” And “I’ll help you get a spot”. That really upset me, because it seemed as though she thought I couldn’t make it on my own. That’s when It became my goal to win this game, and to do it without relying on others.
Tom this part specifically goes to you. I know how hurt you are that I promised you so much, and broke it all off, but going to the finals with you would’ve just been a total defeat of my goals. I would have been relying on you. It would’ve been too easy. And yes, I know it hurt you, but when it came down to it I couldn’t throw my best alliance out of the way either. BJ would’ve had to be written off. I couldn’t do that to him. I had to have some moral standard, although very little of it remains.
To everyone else I “used and abused” I’m sorry for straining our relationships, but when it comes down to it. I did what I had to do. I kept my promise to myself, and I never lost sight of my goal. Yes, I did sometimes let it get to my head, but can you fault me for that? I was like a kid in candy shop, realizing my full potential.
Ultimately, when I look back on how I played this game I am satisfied. I know I’ve hurt some of you, and that does not sit well with me. But I can walk away with my head held high knowning that I never did anything purposefully disrespectful, hurtful, or intentionally malicious. I did it to achieve my goal, and I think I did just that.
Thank you to JW, and to all of you for making this season one that I will remember. Good luck jurors with your decision.
As I stated in my opening statements I made myself the promise that I’d do whatever it took to get myself to the finals, but what it really was about was proving to myself that I had the power to get myself to the end. I really made that conscious decision when I met up with Ashley on New Swan. Ashley had known that I was eager to get an all-star spot so she started to tell me things like. “I won’t vote you out.” And “I’ll help you get a spot”. That really upset me, because it seemed as though she thought I couldn’t make it on my own. That’s when It became my goal to win this game, and to do it without relying on others.
Tom this part specifically goes to you. I know how hurt you are that I promised you so much, and broke it all off, but going to the finals with you would’ve just been a total defeat of my goals. I would have been relying on you. It would’ve been too easy. And yes, I know it hurt you, but when it came down to it I couldn’t throw my best alliance out of the way either. BJ would’ve had to be written off. I couldn’t do that to him. I had to have some moral standard, although very little of it remains.
To everyone else I “used and abused” I’m sorry for straining our relationships, but when it comes down to it. I did what I had to do. I kept my promise to myself, and I never lost sight of my goal. Yes, I did sometimes let it get to my head, but can you fault me for that? I was like a kid in candy shop, realizing my full potential.
Ultimately, when I look back on how I played this game I am satisfied. I know I’ve hurt some of you, and that does not sit well with me. But I can walk away with my head held high knowning that I never did anything purposefully disrespectful, hurtful, or intentionally malicious. I did it to achieve my goal, and I think I did just that.
Thank you to JW, and to all of you for making this season one that I will remember. Good luck jurors with your decision.